The Kids Are Crazy... But I Still Love My Job

You know, it amazes me on a daily basis how much I love my job. I don't know if anyone knows this but teaching is probably one of the hardest jobs in the world. There are these moments though, as a teacher. Actually there are a few kind of moments that happen as a teacher....

The "What?" moment... where you see a kid do something absolutely hysterical and they don't think that you saw them do it.

The "ahh" moment... when you see a kid finally get something that they have been struggling with.

The "if I didn't think you were so cute, I would throw you out a window" moment, where the kid does something absolutely mindless, but when you yell at them they have no clue and just smile.

The "I love my job" moment when all that a kid wants to do is say hi to you in the hallway or give you a hug.

The "I need a drink..." moment when it seems like the kids are bouncing off the walls.

and my favorite.....

The "you are the best teacher in the world" moment where all they do is tell you how pretty you look and how... even though you are their only and have been their only music teacher ever, they still tell you that you are the best music teacher they've ever had.

That's my piece for the day... hope anyone who listens enjoyed!!

No Envy, No Fear

Okay, so most know that I LOVE song lyrics... I live for them in fact. I have been in a serious music mode here recently, and I wanted all to read these lyrics, because they are amazing!

No Envy No Fear
Joshua Radin

Some are reaching few are there
Wandering from a heroes chair
Some are scared to fly so high
Well this is how we have to try

Have no envy and no fear
Have no envy... no fear

Brother Brother we all see
You're hiding out so painfully
See yourself come out to play
A lover's rain will wash away

Your envy and your fear
So have no envy.... no fear

When your sister turns to leave
Only when she's most in need
Take away the cause of pain
By showing her we're all the same

Have no envy and no fear
Have no envy... no fear

Everyday we try to find
Search our hearts and our minds
The place we used to call our home
Can't be found when we're alone

So have no envy... no fear
Have no envy... no fear


AMAZING!!!

It spoke to me as I was driving tonight. My best friend is always pushing me to my limits... mainly because she beleives in me, but I don't have that same beleif in myself. I think that so many of us have that same problem. Someone else beleives in us so much and loves us so much that they beleive we can acheive what we don't beleive we can.

Part of that is fear, and part of that is the envy to have what others have. When we start to let these two things go, we could probably stand on that heroes chair and fly so high. However, my favorite line is near the end, when it says "The place we used to call our home, can't be found when we're alone." Home is where the heart is, right? It isn't a physical place, but a place where we feel most comfortable and where our heart is its most content. We often lose our way, but always come back to it. Funny then that we are never alone when we are in that home. So, I guess this is me saying have no envy and no fear. Don't wander from the possibility that you can be a hero, and don't be so afraid to fly...

Random Obsessions

Now, I don't know if there is anyone even remotely interested in my life and my thoughts, but I figured that I'd put them out here anyways.

I confess to you that the inspiration to blog came from One Tree Hill... yes, the teenage soap opera that is on The CW, formerly known as the WB. I fully admit my obsession with this show, but still feel like a dork that I am the age that I am in my mid twenties obsessing over something like a TV Show. It's my thing though. So, anyways, inspiration came because of an episode where Peyton starts to do a podcast over her random thoughts. The podcast and her webcam later leads to a psycho stalker attacking her.... twice, but nevertheless, it was inspiration enough to start me blogging.

It also made me realize that I get waay too obsessed over things like television shows. My mom and I were talking about it the other day, and I really go through weird phases that switch between music and television. With this latest love of One Tree Hill though, the two meet, because the show has some SERIOUSLY good music on it. Anyways.... There was Billy Ray Cyrus (don't judge, I was in elementary school), Reba McEntire, Mad About You, X-files, Gilmore Girls, Wicked, JoDee Messina, Grey's Anatomy, and now One Tree Hill. Good Times, right?

So yeah, why do I obsess?? Hmmm... no clue whatsoever...

A Fragile State

So... I guess that this is the first of many random thoughts... I needed an outlet, but an outlet that I could share... but not necessarily share with people that I know. Does that make any sense?? Well, anyways, here are my random thoughts, and feel free to comment on them if you so choose.

I recently had a very scary experience. It really turned out to be fine, but at the same time I was terrified. I am quick to become close with people. That can be great, or it can hurt me. In the past it has hurt me, but more recently I have come to know someone who I have gotten close too, and who I trust isn't going to hurt me. Actually, there are a few people who have come into my life recently who I care a lot about and who I can trust. Yay for letting go of those insecurities in trusting friends.

There is something to be said about close friendships. When something goes wrong... it can scare the crap out of you. My friend is in a fragile state right now... I'm not going into details, but this week, I got a call from this friend on their way to the hospital. Now, in my heart, the whole time I was fine. I knew that she'd be fine in my heart, but in my head it wasn't happy. I am the friend who puts aside my own feelings to be strong for others, so when she asked me if I was okay, I said "No, but you don't have to deal with that".

Needless to say, I hung up the phone and cried my eyes out. Then my mom and another friend helped me calm down and helped heart meet head. The friend is fine, and will be fine... but again there is somethin to be said about close friendships. The thought of those close people not being in your life is a frightening one to say the least, and even though I knew and know that all is well.

Anyways... that is the first of many. Hope you enjoyed.